Keeping Sane

It's late and the whole family is still awake...i'm freakin tired...sleepy...and cold. My dad is going to be here tomorrow...and i haven't seen Neo. I think he's upset about it..i wouldn't blame him. I miss him too, but our only boundary is my dad. My dad knows about him, he knows that i'm with him, but he doesn't want me hanging out with him too much. I really...can't find a balance. Christmas is just a few days away and my parents hadn't bought anything for the dinner or presents (my mom wants to make the feast AGAIN...she's really pissing me off). I was personally hoping my aunt would do it this time since there's more room and good different stuff to eat...not a regular mexican banquet. That and Neo's house isn't that far from my aunt's house, so it won't really be a problem. He's still coming...what worries me is how long i should let him stay. My dad has a reputation of talking ALOT of things when he's drunk. (this is one of the reasons my aunt "can't make it cause i'm working...maybe some pizza later?"). My uncle probably won't be able to come since HE gets so drunk he can't drive. So...i'm not really looking that forward to the holiday this year. I would visit Neo's family, but they don't really do anything to celebrate. All i know is i got him a present that i've been proud of since the day i got it lol. Usually i cry in pain and agony for spending so much money, but i was actually literally happy. Pedro is a witness. Hopefully things go well with this whole Christmas fiasco...hopefully.