Last entry of the Year 2008

Its been a few days since the last time i've blogged. Since this is the last entry for the year 2008, i've been trying to come up with ways to end it like a big bang..well the blogging of this year lol. I can't really remember what happened in January of this year...except Valentine's day sucked...i think. By March, Michael wasn't in the picture anymore. I remember he kept trying to get back with really gross voicemails. My friend that used to work at McDonald's told me that he's been hanging out with 2 other guys, just walking around like crackheads. Who knows. I remember how i would stop talking to Hector, only to end up talking to him again back and forth. In the end it turned out pretty neutral...we keep our distance but we're still good friends lol. This summer was my cousin's Quinceanera at Mexico...very lovely. But she was really picky and expensive of everything she wanted. Her waltz was so cute! She was a toy doll that had a windup thingy in order to make her dance with the boys. I just got annoyed at her older sister cause she had a crown, and the birthday girl didn't (jealousy anyone?). The little girls were also dressed like my cousin...but its because the parents were spoiling them as well. Envious people all over the place. When we came back, i was of course jobless (to this day haha). Started school again and found Pedro while meeting other new people. By the end of the semester i found my lifeguard and still with him to this day...That pretty much wraps up the highlights of the year. I've noticed that my attitude has changed from grumpy and whiney to relaxed and somewhat filled with happiness =). I've found positive things in negative setbacks. I never could do that before. I feel like i've gone through some sort of rollercoaster ever since i started with Neo...and strange enough i'm still hanging on. Usually i barf and call it quits...but no, i'm actually hanging on. To top it off, Beatriz hasn't been involved in this whole year and maybe hopefully things go well for her. Out with the rotting old, in with the brand new.Starting the new year with brand new things, places, people to look forward to, whether good or bad. Lucky year number 4...the testing year.

Christmas 2008

Happy Holidays everyone! The party is still carrying on from Christmas Eve to Day. We've had plenty of pozole and tamales to look forward to. Plenty of booze. Next stop: my aunt's house. According to her, we're gonna be eating "pasteles" (a puertorican style tamale...very good!) some chicken scratch (literally) and puerto rican rice...with bread pudding for dessert. My cousins we're too pissed to come over to our house. They were mad at eachother for some...odd reason. My aunt called both of them drama queens. I couldn't get her to stop talking about her kids to Neo. My family got along with him very well...at least they were polite to eachother lol. But Neo was having fun watching my relatives quarrel like drunks with one another. I just didn't like the fact that my aunt knew who he was...well at first i didn't understand why Neo was tripping out about it. My cousins and Neo are lifeguards, and so she assumed that they all knew eachother. But it turns out that my cousins were lifeguards before him (Neo was still in the swimteam back then). But every person my aunt named, he knew..almost lol. She explained that everywhere my cousins went, she was at. She knew almost everyone that was on a swimteam because of her kids. She kept bragging on about their awards and achievements. Later on he told me that he freaked out that she actually remember him..(my aunt visits ALOT of schools..so I understood why he would be shocked...who the heck memorizes a face? crazy pedophile aunt lol) After that scenario he went off to his sister's house. But before he left, i told him my weirdest dreams...and one i remember that made me ask him for his number the first time (remember "L"ady? How it went from fuzzy to him?) He thought about it and smiled really big lol. I gave him my gift and off he went =).

Keeping Sane

It's late and the whole family is still awake...i'm freakin tired...sleepy...and cold. My dad is going to be here tomorrow...and i haven't seen Neo. I think he's upset about it..i wouldn't blame him. I miss him too, but our only boundary is my dad. My dad knows about him, he knows that i'm with him, but he doesn't want me hanging out with him too much. I really...can't find a balance. Christmas is just a few days away and my parents hadn't bought anything for the dinner or presents (my mom wants to make the feast AGAIN...she's really pissing me off). I was personally hoping my aunt would do it this time since there's more room and good different stuff to eat...not a regular mexican banquet. That and Neo's house isn't that far from my aunt's house, so it won't really be a problem. He's still coming...what worries me is how long i should let him stay. My dad has a reputation of talking ALOT of things when he's drunk. (this is one of the reasons my aunt "can't make it cause i'm working...maybe some pizza later?"). My uncle probably won't be able to come since HE gets so drunk he can't drive. So...i'm not really looking that forward to the holiday this year. I would visit Neo's family, but they don't really do anything to celebrate. All i know is i got him a present that i've been proud of since the day i got it lol. Usually i cry in pain and agony for spending so much money, but i was actually literally happy. Pedro is a witness. Hopefully things go well with this whole Christmas fiasco...hopefully.

Colin of London

This morning was a real drag...i had to go to my sister's performance of her little "dance". I thought it was adorable! It reminded me of the good ol' days at Saucedo when we had to do embarrassing stunts. My brother was taping it all of course...but when i look again i see a girl holding him. (wtf?) He told me that it was a girl that he liked back in grammar school but they never told eachother (she liked him too). At that point i was like "uh oh"..i was pretty worried about my brother's gf's absence. At the same time, i got along with the girl quickly than with his current one. The thing that grossed me out the most was that she looked exactly like one of our cousins from Mexico. Maybe its a good thing that he stuck with the current one...lol. I just cut my hair =). I went to the salon Colin of London and it was located in the fanciest street I've ever seen in Chicago. There were HUGE brand name stores...more like shops. The architecture of the stores are somewhat the old school version. Good names like Prada, Juicy Coutore*, Louis Vutton, etc etc. The lady that attended me was sooo beautiful. (very poop Magali). She had very pretty green eyes, with dazzling makeup. Her hair was very curly and with a deep red color. Her dress was black and short with lace sleeves...a cute pendant and gator green pumps. The service was really nice...it felt good to be pampered lol. We started talking about things that interest us, and a little bit about our lives. Turns out she's half mexican, half italian. She has a little girl and a bf (she broke up with her ex-husband). We were talking about movies, the weather, the holidays, the hairstyles and treatment...she even gave me some advice on how to be presentable for Neo's parents. She was really awesome. No pics, I'm tired of sending pics, I'm not posting any, forget it! lol. The weather is crummy...my shoes are useless in the snow. Its not that cold, but the snow slush is everywhere. Especially around the sidewalks where people have to cross. My shoes sucked so bad it felt like i was walking barefoot in the snow. It even got stuck in the snow once. I can't wait for tomorrow...=)

Boo!

Lovely snow! Soft droplets that gently land on the cold, hard, ground. Each of them with uniquely crafted shapes and sizes. A warm hearty laughter is heard throughout a quiet neighborhood as I hold on to him to try to regain my balance from almost falling backwards. Stupid ice. At least I made him smile. I should have gotten new shoes, but no money...i can't believe I'm actually saying those words now. I only have emergency money..well that's what i call it so i don't spend recklessly. Things have been going well so far...i'm slightly nervous of meeting his parents though. His dad is easy to meet, but his mother is described like if he was exactly like my dad. His sisters seem happy for him...he described them as always having a huge grin on their faces when i come up in the conversation. We'll see. I should really stop procrastinating on getting a haircut...(even Neo got a trim. Kinda feel left out lol). We went to the stores to find him a new coat..in which was a hard thing. Some he didn't like, some made him itchy, and he doesn't like puffy...so he settled on a Columbia-style jacket. He liked it because it turned into a vest lol. Pretty resourceful. He got some new shoes as well...i like em =). Boys are such simpletons...they get anything that fits and there you go lol. I have alot to learn.

Pigeon Meal

Living hell is where i reside. My dad's planning to take two weeks off from work to stay home 24/7. Bummer...on a side note, I'm planning to cut my hair. I hope its nothing way too drastic, but something really interesting. The salon is called Colin of London..and it looks extremely expensive. But everything i have is payed for so its free lol. I'm not sure what i want yet, but i don't want really short hair. I already registered for the next semester at school, and sadly no job yet. Sooo lazy to actually look for one. I've been hanging out with Neo these past couple of days (my mom gave him that nickname,...i think she really likes him lol). I haven't seen him in 2 days and i miss him already =(. We were supposed to hangout today but i didn't reply to his text on time. Maybe tomorrow...or Tuesday...or Wednesday. Now i know how Magali feels lol. Today my family and I had Popeyes for dinner. It was pretty funny. As soon as i placed the bag on the table, my brother and I started washing our hands and taking a seat. Meanwhile my dad was watching from a distance as my siblings started opening the boxes of food. We started piling our plates and my dad took evasive action. He tried to stop the conversation with my uncle (He was on the phone this whole time) so that he could make it to the food. I couldn't stop laughing. He sat down and started complaining as to why everyone was eating before him after he payed for the meal. My brother, sister and I ignored him and kept munching on and on with chicken, biscuits, fries, and mashed potatoes. It reminded me of a pigeon that didn't want to be left behind after his fellow feathered friends ate most of the seeds or breadcrumbs. That became the highlight of my day...wish i could say otherwise. *sigh*

Beautiful Blue

Wow, the days are passing by quick. Today I've done an early Christmas shopping spree....not for me though. I found my college buddy and we both wandered in downtown to find something for her bf. She wanted to get him some Jordans because that was his favorite brand...(why??). We tried thinking of places where it would be less expensive, but there was no way out. When i took my bawling friend out from the store (she spent $150) i took her to the store she loves the most. She's a Wet Seal fan. The manager knows her already lol. Soon she had to get to class and Pedro popped into the picture. I walked my friend to school and met up with him on the street oncemore. We both walked into Ulta* (is that how its spelled Magali?) and got intoxicated with the scents for men's cologne. We couldn't find anything that we agreed on...both of us had trouble trying to make a decision between 2 different ones. So we went to the most coniving and sneaky people from Macy's to help persuade us into getting one (dumb decision...but the choice is finally made). I had bought a gift set of Bvlgari for my bf..it smells wonderful. It's called Marine, and well...i think it made sense as to why i got it lol. Pedro couldn't decide between Dolce & Gabbana and Peri Ellis The lady that helped him wasn't making it easier either...AND she showed me the tactics they use to get what they want. (racist comment, but i finally figured out a part of why they think and act the way they do). She was really careful..she thought me and Pedro were together. As soon as I mentioned my bf however, she was all over poor little Pedro lol. She kept rubbing his cheek and complimenting him alot. Pedro on the other hand was getting frustrated and ended up buying the Peri Ellis...he also got a free bag. PLUS he got a sample of the one i got. PLUS he got another tubey thing of the new Daddy Yankee one that recently came out. I got the same...but the boy is trully full of luck.

Singing in the Rain

I passed my english class with flying colors. A perfect score. (Thanks for the brain rub Magali, i got another thing as well ;D) Throughout the whole train ride i was getting nervous. The closer i got, the more revolting my stomach felt. I couldn't remember feeling so nervous (besides last Friday ;)). I kept thinking bad things all through the ride. All this blogging has definitely paid off. As i foretold, most of the freshman were too airheaded to understand how important the test was. There was a girl in my class who couldn't stand the teacher. I thought he was pretty good. When she got her score, she BARELY passed. A 5+ and a 5- would've automatically failed her. But the goodhearted teacher was lenient on her and gave her a 6- (its required if there's 2 equal numbers, the professor of the student evaluate them as well). I pointed out that if it wasn't for him, she wouldn't have moved on to the next level. There was about 1/4 of the class who didn't pass the exit exam. As all freshmen do, they started asking everyone whether they passed or not. It was kind of disrespectful for the ones who didn't ( I was once in that position). Few people got double 6's and i was one of them =). I literally jumped with joy in front of the professor lol. Then i was off to get me some breakfast at McDonald's ( i miss the egg mcmuffins) and i found my old manager Joey. (Wtf?!) I started talking to him for awhile and told him how much i missed the skank. I got a 3rd number haha. How strange that Pedro wasn't around. Either way, people were exchanging numbers to old classmates to keep in contact over the holidays. I hung out with some college friends, then with some of their friends, and eventually found Pedro (i see him everywhere) and Ana came with us. We talked about the old days and random things that came into mind. Pretty cool day...with droopy snowflakes.

"L"ady's Sidekick

One final down, two more to go. I should keep in mind Criminal Investigation for next semester. I'm slightly nervous at my outcome from english for tomorrow. A little bit. I can't believe how fast time is passing by...in less than a few weeks it's going to be a new year. Today wasn't so bad..i hung out with Pedro as usual. But before that, i was talking to Herminio when i notice a skank eyeing him from a distance. She went up to him and asked a really stupid question. Something about speech. I remember he told me that the class is already over and that it wasn't necessary to go the next day. I just remember hearing her giggling and curling her hair with her finger. I couldn't believe she actually did that. He was acting pretty normal though. I looked away for most of the conversation, but i bet if i wasn't there she would've suggested something more. I trust him, but i don't trust her. I didn't like it. Is it a crime to be jealous? I am overreacting? maybe a little. She had no idea that he was with me though...but i guess it served as a good test as to how he would treat other people.Well after that i went to the library to meet up Pedro. I found an old friend i knew since the beginning of my college years. After all this time i got his number lol...and behold Pedro steps in! We couldn't stop laughing. (Maybe he is lucky?) I took the final and left home early...at the Ashland stop though, i got a surprise on the pink line i was getting on. I swear i didn't realize she was there...i didn't see anyone on the train seat before yet she was there all along. Silly "L" waved at me as i finally got a seat. (wtf?!) It was pretty early when we got at the Kedzie stop. When we walked out i found Sammy and Juan from Farragut. (These people graduated after us..they were going to downtown to iceskate at 6PM...idk why) I said hello with hugs and kisses? (Juan stuck out his cheek) and both "L" and I were on our way to Walgreens. It became the second part of her journey...quest..adventure thing lol. Interesting day, no?

Freakin Finals

I finished my essay last night as promised (to myself). I still have a few things to do, some extra credit to cover, but now that the essay is done with i guess i can be a little lenient. That thing was really hard. I'm working on philosophy terms as we speak. I...can't wait for the semester to end. I want it over with. Done. Finished. No more until next year. There really isn't much going on except the pressures of finals in school. My family seems to be more...relaxed. Its very unusual to see them all this way. That or its gotten tense because my brother parked the van in an area where they broke the window. I'm not sure how the story goes, but it happened. That boy doesn't know when to appreciate what they give him. I have been Christmas shopping though...for myself lol. There's a million sales here and there...one in which i missed ($12 jeans at Old Navy...damn it!). Snow is everywhere now...including deadly ice. Love the fluffy white snow, hate the slippery bloody ice. Things have been running really smooth lately, so not much to complain about lol. That is until i get my english 101 results, then i'll begin to bawl and cry. My eating and sleeping pattern has changed drastically. I can't seem to stay up past 12:30 without almost falling asleep on the phone or computer. I wake up at 8AM on the dot everyday, even on weekends. My hunger is pretty much stronger 3 times a day. I hope that this isn't a bad sign. Or maybe it's because i've been drinking plenty of water. Who knows. All i know is that this winter is soooo interesting, there's no time for depressing thoughts.

Heaven on Earth

How do i describe how i feel? perfectly fine? completely happy? in a dreamy state? I feel wonderful. I went out with him and it was loads of fun. He's...soo positive its unbelievable. We went to the movies (more like tried) and ended up going to the mall instead. We talked about eachother and other things. I can't seem to remember any...the ones i do i don't want to mention here. We spent the whole night laughing over things we've done, said, or seen. I remember he told me that he's been shy all this time. I didn't see it. We walked around the mall a few times. He really wanted to see a movie but unfortunately didn't make it. He ended up taking me to a place i've never been before. Somewhere really really south? north? passing Ford City that's for sure. By 129th street and Cicero. We went inside a place that had alot of pool tables. (He didn't want to tell me where we were going) He spent the whole time teaching me how to play and out of dumb luck i won. We made a wager as to whoever would win would get something out of it. I couldn't think of anything...at the time. But all he wanted was to get to use my glasses (I wonder why...) Soon we were off on a long ride back home. He held my hand the whole way as i held his. Sometimes i couldn't really believe i was there...its as if there was another body..or another person that was there. I felt like i was dreaming. We got to my house, and he walked me to my door. The rest is private peeps. But you can pretty much guess. My mom approved (completely. she got nervous when she was talking to him.) I asked her what she thought of him after he left and the first thing that came into her head was "guapo". Great mom. I didn't notice that. Geez.

A Christmas Carol Concoction

I wish i was a ghost. Not a moaning emo, scary one. More like a Christmas ghost that would show particular people, what they're actually doing with their lives. I know the perfect person that needs this kind of scaring as soon as possible. If that was the case though, i already know who my ghost friends would be. Both of them are as apart as the north and south poles. They might hate me for mentioning this, but it is my blog and nobody can change it.(Spam all you want ladies). Ebenezer Scrooge will be played by our truly dear friend Beatriz. Selfish, greedy, inconsiderate. She's dead on the 21st century descendant of the old man. I have no ghost in mind who would play the person that would warn her of her ways. I could pick "L", but she's being used for a far more important part. That and she really hasn't done anything to deserve such a consequence. (if anything she could play Tiny Tim lol) Christmas past will be played by me. Who else has celebrated things with her and would make her regret things from the past?? I won't let her forget that's for sure. Christmas present is no one else but the wonderful, enthusiastic, and cutie pie Magali (kudos to her bf for cutting her hair, i like it =)). She fit the part for being so full of joy and creativity most of the time. Christmas usually involves happy times and celebration and no one could get a better laugh then after hanging out with her...even though sometimes when she gets into a horrible accident its hilarious. If she actually had the chance to show "Scrooge" what she's been through it would definitely open our "friend's"eyes. Last but not least Christmas Future will be played by a lovely and loyal (hermity too) "L"ady. I say this because she's warned Scrooge a million times, and has foretold the bad future that she's made for herself. The Scrooge in our story didn't listen to any of our advice given throughout the years. Possibly one day she will. But for now, all we can do is haunt her with the past, present and future events that have been and will be. In her memories and dreams we'll forever be until she gets things right. How did i end up writing a blog about this? Blame Charles Dickens. Blame A Christmas Carol. Blame Barbie people. And Poop. Lots and lots of poop.

Early Presents

I've been talking to the lifeguard and I got a date...i think. So excited, so full of joy, so...paranoid. I'm nervous that i haven't passed my test at all. Its flashbacks that i keep getting from last year. But the only reason it doesn't stay that way is because i'm so happy about my future hubby haha. I know i'm jixing myself, and nothing might happen but who cares...I DO! My words are so scrambled, its hard to make a point. But i guess that was the happiest moment i've had today. I went shopping a little bit with Pedro. Sort of....more like i did it by myself. Can't stand Pedro hovering over my shoulder while i shop for stuff at Victoria's Secret. So i sent him on a wild goose chase telling him lies of where i was at while i was in line getting my stuff. Everything's been about sales in downtown ever since Black Friday. So i went into a tiny shopping spree...i was too distracted with texts from my future love ;D. I also got my gift from Magali. Its really adorable, thank you!! ( i got some coupons and a tiny dress for my doll, Linette...very cute =))

On the 1st day of Christmas My True Love Gave to Me

...a number from a hot guy! =D. I got the lifeguard's number actually. Pretty damn happy. i could sing! I had one witness...and i hated the fact that he was standing there actually staring at us having a conversation. Leave it to Pedro. No privacy whatsoever. I almost chickened out because he was standing there. I know it shouldn't have mattered, but i couldn't really pull up the courage knowing someone was staring at me trying to do it. He did catch on what i was trying to do. He kept his distance, but not far enough! (Damn you!). I finally overpowered my cowering fear and asked him. He looked surprised yet happy. Pedro told me later on that we both looked extremely cheesy. (good sign, no?). Nothing might happen, but this all serves me as a crap load of practice. Today seemed like any typical day...except when we found a replica of Hector at F.Y.E..I really couldn't stop laughing at the guy. He actually looked wayyy better than Hector's current style. Either way, today was fun =).