Refreshing Misfortune

It was raining all day. Today was a regular school day...nothing really special about dreary Mondays. But i think i've mistaken on the choices i've picked. I finally got a chance to talk to another boy from a different class and got to know him alot better. He seems really cool...and very fine. The only reason i didn't get interested in him that much was because he didn't seem very bright. Social Science just wasn't his thing i guess. While we were talking another boy showed up. He had really gorgeous, piercing blue eyes...really lovely. They both started talking on and on so much about themselves, that i didn't know what to say or do. It was really awkward afterwards since they were waiting for me to respond. It always happens to me even when i'm with friends (Magali and Jaime). After that class and another exam on the next class, i tried getting home really early and instead got there really late. The CTA made a huge crowd of people keep switching sides just to try to get home. Some of the lines weren't even working because of the weather. It was really frustrating and annoying, but at least i got a start on something new =)

Sacred Sundays

My family and I always go out together on Sundays. Some people say its a rare thing to find teenagers still hanging out with their parents. I guess its true...most of them just hang out with their own friends or are too busy becoming young parents. We have six full days to do anything we want, whenever we want to. But Sunday to us is a day that we get to spend together as a family, to actually communicate and just get along with one another. We usually just go to Mass...and when we don't, we go out to eat together at a restaurant. The hard part is choosing where, and i think that's where we should be grateful because we have unlimited options. We grocery shop, go to the movies, go to flea-markets, shop around some more, walk around museums, play at the park, just any stuff that comes to mind. Sunday is also the only time my dad gets to spend time with us too, so they're really important. Today me and my siblings went to see the movie, The House Bunny (its the only one they both agreed on) and it was okay...my brother thinks the main character is hilarious. I was thinking...one day, my brother and i won't be there for my parents to spend the day with, will it be the same for them? The day wasn't really that eventful...although i should consider making a cheat sheet for my test tomorrow...still have time!

Unforgotten

I must be really popular. I haven't stepped foot out of my house, and new faces i haven't seen for ages show up. I talked to 2 friends i haven't heard from in a very, very long time. One of them is a person i haven't really seen in over 3-4 years...and i still don't really know much about her. All i know is that she is extremely sweet and nice, but VERY sophisticated. She's my first ex's little sister, Gabriella. I remember she talked to me when her brother and I had just broken up. She tried to help both of us with our relationship in an attempt to keep us together. It wasn't very successful, but its nice to know that she still remembered me after these past years. The second person that contacted me was a really close friend. The infamous, ever popular Jaime. We talked about life and the constant changes that life throws at us, the many friends we lost contact with, how college was going for both of us, and future gatherings we should attend to catch up...just like old friends should. I wonder if it would ever really happen...possibly. I'm very flattered that they both talked to me, and i'm very happy knowing that the haven't forgotten about me. I guess i really did leave a mark behind, just like they have left theirs in my heart.

A Twisted Love Note

Its so boring...there's nothing to look forward except studying and books. Maybe i should go for that one guy i'm interested in...or maybe its a mistake. Its hard to make decisions when both ends are life-changing opportunities. I sort of want to take a chance, but i'm afraid. Its nothing that i should be afraid of...maybe its because i haven't done it in awhile? My low self-esteem drives me crazy. I contradict myself all the time while plotting ways to get the things i want. Its good, its bad, its happiness, its destruction, its an opportunity, its a dead end. What if he's not interested in me? And if he isn't, why should i bother? Maybe he really is shy like my friend has said. Maybe i'm not really trying hard enough as i thought i was. Then again, i have pretty much dropped hints to show some sort of friendship. I take my time because he had no intention to do anything....i'm giving him space to put the puzzle together, but he sees it. Or maybe its all in my head. My instincts tell me he has an idea...but what is he waiting for? Am i rushing things too early? I haven't done anything strong to scare him away...at least i think so. He still talks to me, but he still keeps to himself. Its a normal thing to do...right? What if he already has someone in mind? That's probably it...but he does things that really don't have racional explanations. Why else would he smile at every funny thing i throw at him? Why would he always face towards my direction while reading along with the class? Probably leading me on to something else...or i'm in too deep to notice reality? I'll be patient...One day soon enough i'll have to courage to actually ask.

Bookworms

Today i had a tiny field trip with old friends...we literally are getting so old, we passed the time at a bookstore in Wicker Park. In reality, Pedro was looking for a book he needed in class..with no success. Magali found a book that her sister was interested in...but decided to keep her lips sealed about it. I didn't realize we would get there so much faster taking a different route. I have so much to learn..after that we got a bite to eat, and walked around aimlessly around the town.
It was a really warm day even though night was spreading in the sky. I wish fall would come faster...i like the cold weather. Its the sign of all the happy holidays it'll bring later on. School also ends during the holidays =). I should really try harder to find a job...i'm going to need the money. For now, i'll just focus on school...just like these nerds are! =D

Dear B******

We've always had our differences, and always will. I haven't talked to you in about a year, and it really didn't get us anywhere or get anything done at all. I ignore you because i don't trust you, I'm disappointed at you, and you became one of the worst persons i have ever met in my entire life. Its really sad to say all of this knowing that we've had a lot of ups and downs in the past. I've always overlooked your flaws and took you in as the person you were. I'm not saying I'm perfect either, because nobody is. But i never really saw anything go bad as it has happened up to today. You were a person that slightly shimmered with kindness and loyalty. But in the end, you have just shown not only me, but the whole world your true colors. So instead of hiding and ignoring, I'm actually standing up to face you and become something better than what you have done with yourself. The past is the past, and it should always stay that way. We can't have the friendship we used to have...its impossible. But i do know that we can reconcile our differences and end our problems. You act like you don't know what's going on, but deep down you really do...you're trying to avoid it, to run from it, but in reality you've just been going in circles. The best i can say to you is good luck and i hope that you'll finally manage to grow up one day..as i did.

Bump, bump, bump

I found my friend 3 times in one day, at random places, at different times. She says its her wishful thinking...might be so. She has always been the luckiest person i have ever known. If God does exist, he gave it to her for a good reason. She explained that she's careful with the luck that's been bestowed upon her and shows that she's been very responsible with handling it though..at least she told me so. I don't think anyone would handle such a power well enough without becoming corrupted with it. She hasn't =). Or maybe this is all superstition that one can't help but wonder why all the unexplained has occurred. Either way...must be a sign that Halloween is coming! I'm really excited and anxious for the day to come. My friend has "recommended?" that i keep a close watch on L...she has a tendency to slack off. So from now on, I'm going to make surprise visits to her house (she absolutely hates it) and push her to work on it more everyday. Well not everyday...but 3 times a week should be enough damage for her. I've found a few more friends by school...Ivan was on his way home and he still looks and acts the same. Jessica was climbing up the rail to go home also..but i got the feeling that maybe she didn't want to talk to me? Who knows. I was supposed to meet Pedro, but unfortunately didn't get a chance to at all. I forgot my wallet at home. I desperately needed to get it before my dad would get home...otherwise he would've found his broken phone charger. I DID get him a new one...but only to find out that my dad bought another one himself. I'll just return it tomorrow.

Smashing Pumpkins!

Last night was really horrible...my ex decided to call me in the middle of the night to ask about me. I felt disturbed...disgusted. This man was a person i left for a very good reason, and yet i couldn't stop myself from listening to him. After i broke it off, his whole life went downhill. He lost his home, his family is still not supporting him, no steady job, and went into complete depression. What exactly he wanted with me, i really don't know and sadly don't want to. I wished him the best of luck and hopefully maybe one day his life will become stable. I haven't really talked to people from my past except a select few that i still keep in contact with. Randomly, i decided to talk to Fruit Loop to see what he's been up to. He still hasn't changed...not alot. His ideas are more abstract than before...he says he doesn't want to follow the crowd. But he's just following the crowd that doesn't follow the OTHER crowd (hope that made sense). In other words, there are people just like him who don't believe in society's norms and end up in another group trying to do the same. There's not much difference. After alot of arguing with him, (its the only way we get along) i tagged along with my family to go to Target. Halloween things are already being placed throughout the whole store. I can't wait for it to get here myself, lol. I found a greeting card that literally made me laugh so hard my face turned red. Lol...funny.

I can't believe i pulled an all-niter last night for nothing. My English professor decided to extend the deadline until Tuesday...wonderful news isn't it? Its really sunny outside and yet I'm indoors doing laundry. The good thing is that i will soon be told a tiny secret from a crush. I'm really hoping for the best =)

Window Shopping =)

Soo tired...after a long, long, long, long....long long lesson of politics, i have met up with an old friend and crime partner... L. This future Kira knows her stuff very well. So well, i couldn't even find her as i was waiting for her by the train stop in downtown. But we eventually found one another...(i had to stand still) and went on our way to window shop. Downtown Chicago has felt like my second home ever since i started college. I've gotten used to all the sounds of cars and cell phones ringing while people walk brisklly towards their jobs, schools, or even trying to catch up with friends. I've shown her two shops...and one guy that wouldn't look at me =(.

Tada!

Who knew i'd end up here? Who knew i would start something as grand or new as a blog? My friend Magali of course. She always introduces me into new things and ideas that i never thought of before. She's always bright and creative in her unique ways, but sometimes a little lazy. I don't think i'd advance anywhere if it wasn't for her...so i say, Thank you =). Hope i can keep this up!