Gorgeous Gambit

I don't usually double-post. But after seeing the last blog was a waste of a blog entry, i've taken one of Magali's usual entry styles. Here's a pic of the future Gambit for the upcoming X-Men movie. Isn't he hot?!

Too Late

As a few of you know, a person has tried to apologize for something that occurred since last year. She was expecting forgiveness and friendship in return. But in reality, i still believe she doesn't deserve it. She still doesn't obviously know what she's apologizing for. Her friend has told her countless times the reasons behind the incident, and she has pointed out her own negative actions that led her to the path she's taking. She recognizes it and really doesn't do anything about it, so that really is not anyone's problem. "L" told me i should've pointed out her flaws to show her exactly what she did. But since i'm no friend to a person like that, i wasn't going to. She shouldn't have to hear it from me, she should've listened to something that's been told to her from a TRUSTWORTHY friend. It probably might have taken effect if it came out of my mouth, but it just proves how much she really doesn't trust her current friend. Her only friend and she still didn't accept it. This wasn't the only time where this person messes up, and if its already a part of her life, then i don't want to be involved in it. I'm surprised the friend she's done harm to hasn't really done something about it..she's too free-spirited i guess. I would like to point out though that during her "apology" she said she would apologize to someone else as well. She hasn't and she's not going to. This is all just to get back a friend that she thinks she lost. Her intentions weren't to get peace between anyone at all. Once again she makes a desperate attempt to keep everything close to her by choosing malicious actions against others. Where's the honor in that? She even said that the person she did harm to would not have protected her either. That is complete bullshit. I understood and I explained it to her that even though they both never got the chance to get to know eachother better, my own current long-time friend would still save her stupidass. I've heard enough after that. I made it pretty clear that i was glad she recognized that something was wrong (except she didn't know why...dumbass) and that she should have a good life. If she expected for me to run back to her like nothing happened, she's wrong.

Never Ending Feast

Today was day 2 of a huge Thanksgiving feast from yesterday. I'm partially working on my essay (very little) but i guess it counts. Still have plenty of time...not really. My mom was the chef for the night as she roasted a huge turkey with stuffing in the oven. After that was a large piece of ham surrounded with pineapples. It got drenched in its own juices as well as the sweet fruity taste. My mommy also made side dishes. She made potato salad, rice, and extra stuffing. (i love stuffing! I guess that's why i'm getting as big as a turkey) My sister "made" dessert by making a fruit salad. It was pretty yummy. Its basically made out of marshmallows. coconut cream, canned fruit, coconut pieces, and raisins. My aunt brought the wine and a cherry pie. My uncle's wife brought us some fish stew (wtf?...they tried). Everything was delicious...and over stuffing. My mom took out the Christmas tree and my sister and i helped decorate it. We found alot of adorable ornaments in a box. There was cute mime that looked so sad. He was broken, and me and my sister tried to put him together. We did, only to find out that my mom threw him away. He looked more depressed than happy to be a happy holiday decoration..oh well.

Wake-Up

So far i've had 2 signs about Diabetes. Not on myself *knocks on wood*, but signs from around the world. My friend and I were talking about it once on how its hereditary effect might AFFECT our lives. The second warning was when i saw this episode of Scrubs where Turk gets diagnosed with Diabetes 2. Its....scary. I'm horrified. When i was younger, i had a kidney failure. This epidemic was like a trend back when i was in 4th grade. Girls who were mostly overweight and my age that would drink a lot of soda would get diagnosed with some kidney disease. Its as if you had to go potty really really really bad...only to feel about 3 drops drop in. The pain was intense...my own body had put me to sleep once...I remember my dad and my mom trying to get me to a hospital. They were trying to keep me awake..to keep me from closing my eyes. Its kinda blurry trying to remember that thing...but it did give me a freakin wake up call. I stopped drinking soda for 2 years straight. To this day i try to drink it moderately, only when i have no other option i would drink up. But never coke. Never dark drinks. My family has a history of diabetes, and i really don't want to end up in a situation where it got to me because i let myself. I want to try to stop it from ever happening. I want to prevent it from happening to me...even just making it come late. I would be happy knowing i've tried to do something about it even if it comes. But for now, this is just the start of a healthy journey that i had to have started a looong time ago. I'm starting my New Year's Resolution a little early. Better late than never =).

Wonderland's Mad Tea Party

Sooo lazy...i know i have homework...somewhere. I'll worry about that later, later. Since my doll and panda hat for my sister are on hold, i've been practicing crochet. My mom won't teach me knitting until i've mastered crochet. She might be worried i'll accidentally stab myself...lol. Its hard at the beginning...but eventually you pick it up. You just need alot of patience...after awhile you get bored, hungry, tired, or distracted. My sister went to the circus today with my parents. I was supposed to take my mom's place, but i really didn't want to go. My mom reluctantly went though (my parents have been awkward for awhile). They both came back more natural together. I need a job. A good job. My parents were talking to me about double majoring. If one doesn't work out, i would always bounce back up on the other. It doesnt sound so bad, but it does sound like alot of work. I should start thinking about my minor then lol. Another friend's had the same idea i think...become a teacher of the subject she's fond of. Ms. Hilaris has mentioned it before as well. Not bad...not bad at all =). Speaking of which, i know a few of you know that Jose wants us to gather together and have dinner with her. I sort of...don't want to go? Knowing that she got annoyed when he mentioned it to her, she responded with "wait until you get here so you can plan". Something like that. Bad sign that she really doesn't want to see Jose basically haha. Its so awkward though...what would we talk about once the basic hellos and how are yous are covered? We haven't really seen eachother for almost a year. Its going to be a table full of hypocrisy and twofacing. For one, and I say this now, I think Ms. Hilaris doesn't even like me. Ever since i've made that comment of what my brother's done to her, she's been kind of.."shunning"? me for the rest of the senior year. Jose only has friends when he wants to have friends...only when he needs people the most. Magali and I have stuck together for a very, very long time..so she's the only one on the table who will be true. Juan and maybe Yesenia would be neutral. I have no idea how she is now...or Ms. Hilaris. Juan isn't really much of a surprise to anyone. Maybe i just feel nervous? No, that's not it. I don't really know how i feel about this, but i do know that i don't really want to go. I don't really feel comfortable with that scenery in my head. I'd rather be going through another job interview than go to that dinner. If it were something like the Mad Hatter's Party, i wouldn't decline whatsoever! So much fun, so much tea, and the cute little mouse who sings himself lullabies to sleep. Let's not forget his best friend the Mad Hare! I bet they all could keep a strong conversation which would never end.Ever since i've heard Tim Burton's making the Alice in Wonderland book into a movie, i was thinking WTF!? wow....its awesome. Truly awesome. Here's a pic of Johnny Depp as the Mad Hatter.Some people like it, others criticize it...but i really adore it <3.

Dir en Grey 2008

I have never met a real celebrity, let alone a rockstar. Dir en Grey were the last people on my mind that i would ever come as close as encountering. But as i've told "L" before, and i'll keep rubbing it to her face for as long as she lives "Anything is possible. Nothing is impossible" (one of those two, but they both have the similar meaning) I've lived in Chicago all my life, and i finally got to step in and actually be in the House of Blues. On the way over there we saw a really long line just waiting to see Dir en Grey. It went around the corner, so "L" decided to walk past them and go straight around the front. Faces turned as we passed them filled with confused and annoyed looks. I guess they were waiting for when we'll try to butt in. A security guard was outside the building, so we asked to go inside and he let us through. The building looked fantastic. Its so old-school and gorgeous, they still had some memorabilia and of course the gift shop. Security was extremely tight, and the closer the time came for the show to start, the more nervous "L" and I would get. We found the other winners as well. One guy came from Indiana and the other one was a girl who came from Kansas City. People actually came at 5AM from around the Midwest to stay in line. Security wouldn't let them though...lol. The time finally came when people were being let in. We climbed up the stairs and waited by the mixing booth.(as shown) It was pretty dark, so yeah...bad pics. We waited...and we waited...and waited...time passed by soo slowly. "L" was already getting annoyed by the Indiana guy. He seemed very conceided..at last a man called us over to meet them. We were bunching up, excited yet nervous at the same time. We walked inside what seemed a white supply room (they wouldn't let us go up to their dressing room unless all of us were 21..wonder why) and waited...IMPATIENTLY. At that point, nobody really talked, everyone focused at the door where THEY would come out. Then finally...like models, each one of the strolled out casually. First Kyoru, then Die, then Toshiya, and last was Shinya. The world froze for about 30 seconds, with everyone just staring across to one another. That was until people began to snap out of it and move to greet them. Their manager? instantly said that we could "get autographs, take pictures, and later we'll have a group picture". Everyone took it as "You have 30 seconds to get what you need, so hurry". People were scrambling to get to talk and get things signed from each of them. Die was the one who was laughing at my DeathNote since he right away recognized it. He showed it to Shinya who also smiled at my attempt to ki..i mean get their signatures. "L" took random pics of them without their notice, which pretty much made them keep their guard up. She took pics with them, and so did I. It was amazing..the experience was soo nerve wrecking, i felt like it was Black Friday where people would fight for what they wanted after the holidays. "L" was the only one who asked Die where the lead singer Kyo was located and unfortunately responded that he was still sleeping. After that, we gathered around to take one last group pic and off we went to see them perform live (more like got kicked out of the room..the owner was counting heads to check that nobody tried to sneak up or hide to go to their room with them). We found Brandon and his friend who were located almost in the middle of the crowd, and met up with them. Then the show began with the opening band called "The Human Abstract" (LOL!!!) They weren't that impressive...except for the guy with really long dreadlocks. When he headbanged, it looked so awesome in the light. So then Dir En Grey showed up, and hell broke loose. People were moshing, screaming, headbanging, jumping, and just plain out having fun. The night was endless...and there couldn't be a better day to celebrate it after my birthday.

Fabulous, Exciting, Wonderful, Freakin Happy Birthday...TO ME!

It was the sunniest day so far in the month.To me it was. I've turned 20. I kept recounting the candles on my cheesecake (i didn't want a regular cake) and i kept miscounting. 20 candles are a lot of years. "L" made me a birthday cake as well. (it was yummy! chocolate with white frosting! Thank you!((Love the sprinkles))) I got money mostly as presents, and started buying my own. I got a pair of earrings, a blouse, a chaleco*? a super cute Ugly Doll from the Comic Book Store, and a hackey sack. I've always wanted one of those. Its so cool <3. It pretty much was a happy day for me. Every night on the 17th, i stay up late until my birth time:2:31 AM. While time passes by, i reflect on the things i've accomplished during my previous year. The good, the sad, the right and wrong. My life. On the exact time however, i make a wish. I know its usually customary that i do it when the candles blow out, but i think in my own little head that the wish would create a bigger impact if i do it exactly when my mommy pushed lol. Hector calls it "Happy one day closer to death". Hector must see the glass half empty constantly. So what if were gonna die? we still have a life where opportunities are given to us, and we are free to do as we please. What we do in our lives is what matters the most. Sure we may take wrong paths and make bad choices, but there's always a magical fairy that would guide us...a cute fairy...Tinkerbell =D. Or a ghost...a funny-looking ghost..a Mario ghost o_o. Our own intuition would set us back on the right track. We can't mourn and cry about it all day like a Hector. I wonder what my 20th year will bring in...

Turkey Plans

Tamales de rajas and chile rojo. Tamales dulce with raisins or without. My aunt made pozole and the tasty delights called tamales. The caldo and the hot tamales were extremely spicy. I guess you can say that we're starting our "pre-Thanksgiving" feast lol. Its exciting now that its been snowing today in the evening. Gentle, fat flakes falling to the ground. I've slacked off on blogging, but there were other obvious matters to attend to (essays). But today, everyone was discussing where the turkey's location should be. Almost everyone..my mom didn't get to go. More like didn't want to. The others have agreed however, to make the feast in two places. Its going to be pretty difficult to go to both, but these were just ideas the parents were concocting. Things are just being planned. Nothing new has really happened, but i guess the snow says otherwise. We won't have much of a winter wonderland if global warming continues. Its funny how my professor would talk about it with a really frightened face. He showed us a map of what our past and present temperatures look like. Its a HUGE difference. A friend of mine said that her other professor blamed it on overpopulation. Who knows? Maybe Obama will come up with something along with the other organizations that are helping to prevent our weather patterns from getting worse.

Victory

I have been sent to a battle that i thought i wouldn't succeed in, i fought a fight that took all my strength to live, and i conquered...survived. My dad and I were locking horns in the most intense eye and word combat up to date. We respected our boundaries by setting limits as to how far the other would go. And in the end, i won. He limped off to live for another day...with the same shameful feeling i get after losing to him. But this time i didn't argue for myself. I argued for all my siblings. I defended my sister from a belief that still contradicts my way of thinking. My father has a way of teaching us about life through brute strength and rude critical remarks. I proved him his ways were wrong. It felt like a science experiment, but his own weapon backfired on him. I turned the tables around. He called my sister for evidence to support his thinking, but my mom volunteered into the project as well. He asked her a simple math problem for her to solve in her head (this is the debate. the purpose) I defended my point that she gets nervous because of his manner of expression. He concurs that my sister's just being a kid...that she cries and gets nervous for anything. During the "procedure" my sister came up with shaking, watery eyes, and no answer to his question. My mom's turn came up and asked her a similar problem but with different numbers. Instantly, my sister responded the correct answer with a calm presence. His own form of evidence proved faulty.I pointed this out to my father, and he instantly retreated by talking about a different subject, trying to aim the problem at me. The dispute was finished. I finally learned the reason behind his logic. "She's just a kid. Kids cry all the time". Did he ever consider her feelings? OUR feelings? Its true that he hasn't hit her in any way, but what about US? My brother and I weren't fortunate enough to escape that fate. We are the way we are because of what he's done. Sometimes we seem indifferent, arrogant, and criticize the world because that's all we know since childhood. But the fact that we stepped out of our world to view more things that are out there, made us see that things aren't always that way. Well...at least i think so. My brother has been partially brainwashed into thinking my dad's ways are right. I don't blame him. I think some of my father's morals seem true, but i still think its the wrong way to get to them. I feel like i've been placed into a war or a chessboard were i think the best way to create peace is to call it a stalemate. But this is only one argument that would follow into another, and another and another...for now i shall breathe deep, stretch, and bask in my glory.

Madagascar 2

I went to see the Madagascar Movie 2! It was pretty funny..sad to hear that Bernie Mac passed away. My mom couldn't stop laughing when Moto-Moto was presented (she thinks that he looks like my dad) and she almost choked on her popcorn. I remember coughing and wheezing after that. But before any of that i went to get new glasses. The doctor was really pissed to hear that i've had these glasses for 2 years and haven't changed them. I lied. They're actually 4 years old. But even so, he kept giving me this forced smile. He still looked mad with his attitude. He was disappointed with me that i haven't told my parents. (In reality, my parents are too cheap to go through with it..didn't want to tell him that). It was freezing cold after the movie, so i bought myself a coat. Not the best i've wanted, but i like its fluffy warm interior. (no fur). This is a quick blog i'm typing up due to essay stress, but this was typically my whole day.

Checks and Balances

A quick rant: As if all my problems weren't finished, i have to type up 2 essays in 1 week. My philosophy essay has to be extremely perfect. No excuses. (I'm pissed). The second essay is merely a rough draft for Criminal Justice...along with some extra credit and a bibliography. I'm so lucky that i haven't had a lot of homework in English. Social Science is another matter...i have a quiz on Wednesday and i haven't even read the 7th or 8th chapter of the book. I'll be too busy doing research for my criminal justice. Thank God the old man decided to give us our references to use for the essay. Except we can't check out the articles (not allowed) and we pretty much have to fight along with maybe 300 other students. We can't choose our own references, we have to follow his...(w..t..F!). I've done pretty well on Soc Science quizzes so i guess i'll have to skim...or at least read the chapter summary. Must memorize a couple of words too. Along with words for philosophy because the douche is making us work in groups for our final quiz. Not the final exam, the quiz. (I pray he doesn't stick me with people i know are failing). Other than that, everything is pretty damn swell! =D I watched an Arab dance, it was pretty cool. Couldn't take pics cause people were in the way. But i did get to win a free mug in a raffle...whoopee! e_e I found Hector in the entrance of the school...got to talk to the guy. Still the same..he seems nicer in a way. His friend was WAY too friendly. And i quote:"Are you Hector's girlfriend?" (This was the first statement that came out of this man's mouth) Before any of this though, i was chasing my friend the lifeguard =) (he's the dumb one in my science class) and was trying to get ahold of him. Then some creeper came up to me and hugged me hello. His name is Raul..i've seen the guy walking around the school and i had a class with him before.(talk about personal space...he was wayyy too close when we were talking). That was my full day today...how about you guys? *sadly chains self to the computer* Interesting day, isn't it?

An UnBEARable Price

I have permanent DSL! (I think). All i know is that time is passing by really, really fast. Almost in the middle of November, and today's faint snowflakes are a sure sign of winter's arrival. I've decided to name my doll Linette..it sounds right to me. I haven't really started on her since SOMEONE still has her. (You know who you are!). I'll get to her as soon as possible. I've come across another cute thing that i would love to make. I found this at the Alley near Belmont, but sadly i couldn't take any pics there. Its not allowed. The place is a hardcore retail store filled with things for Goth, punk, emo, and skateboarder. I know i'm missing a few categories, so don't judge me lol. I'll do my best to describe it. For starters, its some sort of beanie, black and fuzzy material. The hat has bear ears and cute red eyes to show for it. The hat has flaps that fall down a person's own ears and are up to the waistline. Those are supposed to be the bear's paws. They had some sort of pockets, so i'm not really sure what they're for. Point is, its adorable. I think the trademark was Evil Teddy...or something similar to it. The cuddly thing's price was very expensive...and i was heartbroken =(. No worries! I've decided to try and make my own..maybe not that similar, but something close to it. I need fleece...lots and lots of fleece...

Stupid DSL

I haven't had internet for *counts with fingers..* more than five days. The DSL box has a habit of receiving internet whenever it feels like it, and i've been missing out on blogging. Over the past few days, its been nothing but hell! Not really...more like depression and anxiety towards losing connection with the world. I've been passing my philosophy class because i've been memorizing all the dumb definitions. Unfortunately, i ended up lowering my grade in Criminal Justice which won't be so difficult to raise up again. My dad is unfortunately going to spend more time with us since the economy is so bad..he leaves later and gets home earlier. Hoorah! >=(. I thought things were supposed to get easier and happier. Wednesday i went with some peeps to an interview with Urban Outfitters. Funny. The next day was "L"'s birthday and paid my respects with cake and flan. Today feels like a horrorfest. My dad won't stop nagging as to why i'm not good enough. The only thing worth looking forward to is my birthday and the Dir en Grey concert that i was invited to (courtesy of "L"). That and the weather's getting colder...wonderful snow will soon fall and blanket over the land. Can't wait =)

Sick Illusions

As many of you have noticed, yes. I have been blogging. I'm not going to stop...i don't think i can. No matter how Poop obsessed i've become, its not going to prevent me at all from my daily life (I hope). Its become a ritual...a hobby..or some sort of stress reliever. My music has changed with new songs posted along with a few older ones. It all depends on my mood, so they'll keep changing along with the months. One of my dad's friends came in today to fix up our plumbing. He was very attractive...i couldn't stop drooling in front of him. My mom noticed (she NEVER misses anything, does she?) and sent me to do something stupid to get out of his shining presence. I felt like a hobo since i barely woke up when he was saying hi to the family. Very embarrassing shaking hands and saying hello with a rotten morning breath cloud forming. I forgot his name...but he was really tall, Caucasian, and a cop. When my dad mentioned earlier in the week that one of his friends was coming in, i was thinking short, old, and paisa looking. Turns out he was young, hot, and law enforced =). It seems he really liked my dad alot. They kept joking around in ways that i wouldn't really expect my dad to do. I guess he was impressed with my dad's intelligence or way. Was i boy crazy? maybe...or the sickness is getting to me.

Halloween 08

I felt like Cinderella when the clock struck midnight on Halloween. It was fun. "L" seemed to like Halloween..or maybe it was all the attention she was getting from the dress. I've said it before, and i'll say it again...i have never seen so many heads turn our way in my whole life. They absolutely liked "L"s dress. People were confusing us with a performing act in downtown. People stopped us to take pictures, and we've had a group of Asian paparazzis taking them "without us noticing". (we DID notice guys!) We took pics (they're posted under "L"'s myspace, so good luck peeps) and frolicked around downtown. We watched a fire-dancing performance. They seemed really cool, and their show was awesome..i personally fell in love with a guy hiding behind an orange masquerade mask. He was really hot! lol. After the show, we were on our way to the other show. I was amazed. How can that be?! people that i thought that would actually express themselves on an unlimitedless night of fright be dressed in their casual clothes!? A complete group of emos that didn't celebrate the most glorious night of the year! About 5 people actually got into the spirit of the dead, but the rest were too dumb to get into it. We found a few people that we knew, and stayed there for awhile to take a few more pics. We easily got bored (too many emos in "L"s case) and started back to her house. She wouldn't stop laughing ( and i bet she still is) at this group of people who invited us to their party. The fact that they were desperate enough to get strangers into it was really embarrassing i guess...they even suggested that they had "free food" (wtf?). I felt sorry for them, but "L" just kept laughing the night off lol. Pretty much it was a night to remember =3